Author: song dog sally

It’s been a very quiet weekend – one for introspection and observation of my life and how it’s changed this last year.

I’ve also had time to look at how my life is now and the direction in which it is heading.

One thing that has kept me going through all of the shit has been to remind myself that something good, maybe even something amazing, will come out of it; it just wouldn’t be fair for that to not happen.

It’s funny, when you go through a chunk of yuk like this, if it includes a breakup then what you most often hear as a comforting statement is, “There is someone amazing out there for you.”

What if that’s not what it’s all about? What if looking for a new mate isn’t at the top of the list?

Then what is it that you hope for? What is the thing that will show up and be the good that came out of the horror?

One doesn’t often say, “Wow, my life imploded, maybe I’ll get a new job,” or “I hope that when the dust settles I’ll be forced to find a new place to live.”

One doesn’t suspect that when their child gets into legal trouble that everyone will be thankful for it.

Ever.

Not being on the prowl for a mate leaves others wondering. But what it also leaves is space for a bunch of the other good stuff to not only happen, but to be noticed.

It leaves room for the unexpected.

And the unexpected may be here for me.

Of course, I can’t talk about it now, but hopefully soon.

 

etiquette

If your dog is a car chaser then you are not allowed to leave your dog outside unattended.

It’s really fucking unfair and unacceptable to put someone in the position of dog killer.

Tonight’s angry barker was 10 inches tall and the color of the dirt road.

Three trucks had to come to full stops to avoid hitting it.

Come on People.

Proud Fucking Mama

There is a stretch of the Colorado River that I have never rowed and due to a near-death swim a few years ago, I never will row.

So today, my boy the river guide, came home to tell me that HE is taking ME on that river this weekend.

He said, “You’ve taken me down so many rivers, I can’t wait to take you down one.”

I really just have the best three boys in the entire world. They are such cool human beings.

I am so lucky.

 

 

Yep, my dog is THAT dog

My next door neighbors have two female black labs who Elvis crushes on big time.

If there is any sign of life next door, he races over, impossible to detain, deter, or dissuade, hoping that he’ll get to see the girls – even if only for a moment.

Said neighbors are getting married this weekend and they have family in town which equates to lots of activity over there and lots of “Elvis, get back here.”

It’s already embarrassing, but tonight…

There’s a man outside, Elvis’ substantial ears perk up and he’s running before I can even open my mouth. So I hurry over, yelling, “I’m so sorry.”

I’m far enough behind to be useless if he tries to eat someone, but close enough to see him run up to the wine casket and pee on it.

“I’m really so sorry. My name is Sally. I’m the neighbor with the wretched dog.”

Then I call the dog and attempt a graceful and hasty retreat.

I look over my shoulder at the father of the bride to say a quick toodleloo and watch my dog vomit all over their patio.

shitdamn

fuck

cold turkey

I just finished the final episode of Hell on Wheels.

We used to watch it, then we stopped because we had livestock for entertainment.

I began at the beginning, 70 hours ago, and am now experiencing grief, disbelief, and more than a little relief.

I haven’t gotten shit done since hour one.

I’ve actually upped my intake recently, knowing that realistically, nothing else was going to happen until I’d seen it all.

Until that fucking Golden Spike was driven home.

I completely succumbed to the lure of hot man in the Wild West.

And now, 2.92 days later, I can move on with my life.

 

food

There is a ginormous eclair sitting on the countertop behind me that is SCREAMING my name.

“Eat Me!” is pulsing out of the white bag on the counter, getting louder and more urgent with each repeat.

But, I don’t want to eat it yet because after I do, there will be nothing to look forward to tonight

#ilovegluten, #friendswhobake,